Wednesday, 3 September 2014

Have you ever..

I am not a saint of love nor a guru of love.
I learned thru the hardest way and found enlightenment along the way.
Sometime, even though the person that you are interested in, is breaking your heart
but you carried on smiling so that she will.

Listening to her, on how did she plan to give a guy a surprise breaks my heart
She is troubled because she was been given a cold shoulder by the guy( let name him 'D' ).
despite doing so much for him.
In order to cheer her up, I went to her workplace and bought her chocolate and
even though the place I stay and her workplace is miles apart.
Just for that 2-3 mins, actually makes me smile like a fool.

I am envy of D. He gets what I am trying so hard for,
her attention and her emotions.
I don't ask much as long as she is happy, I am alright and
I will be alright..

Unconditionally for her.......







Tuesday, 2 September 2014

ThatSmile

Hey!
It's me. Yea~ Chris..

It's been awhile since I last updated or posted something on a social media.
Still remembering the last time I did that, was about 6 months ago.
Oh well~

I love rainy day. I love the peace that comes after, especially at night,
peaceful and silent. Nothing will interrupt me from having some self-reflecting.
3 more months for me to finish my National Service (NS) and
to be honest, I am still thinking of what am I going to do after it.

Should I continue studying or should I go to work?
 If I choose to work what should I work as?
and if I choose to study, I am actually worrying about the school fees.

I wanted to follow my passion but looking at the reality of this society,
it seems hard and not practical.
Frankly speaking I am afraid.
That fear that I am going to fail, that fear that I am going to lose.
It's been haunting me ever since June after my 22th birthday.
Knowing that I am not young anymore and I will continue to age as years go by.
Scary isn't it?

But it alright.
Bill Gates and Steve Job have this fear before as well.
In order to succeed, you have to persevere even you are doing it alone.

I looked up at the sky and smiled.